"So, you'd like to forget about that incident huh? Well, I have to say..."too bad" - what you want to forget I always remember and what you want to "remember"....well - you know the rest.
Why should I be cooperative? What's in it for me? I like the fact that you have to rely on me and I don't like it when you take me for granted so, occasionally, I have to let you know who's boss.
People depend on me for so many things - when I don't function optimally it can be a little...how should I say..."humiliating." A failed test - a forgotten name - a missed appointment...TORTURE, TORTURE, TORTURE - just what I do best!"
My Reflection:
I am convinced that my memory is a completely separate entity, having nothing to do with me - with a mind of its own (so to speak) - and its own personality. It fails me regularly - especially when I need it most and could care less if I'm humiliated or embarrassed. It's not very empathetic and when I beg or plead it totally shuts down.
I find that it works best when I pretend like I don't really need the information that I seek. Many times I casually indicate that if I don't have it, it's not the end of the world. But, in the end, it will still withhold a name like a bear hiding her cub and won't give it up no matter how many times I dangle the alphabet in front of it.
Maybe it's hungry and I just don't feed it enough or exercise it like I should and if I did - it would like me better and embarrass me less. Ya think?
Question:
How do you treat your memory?
