THE CONSPIRATORS - 354-357/365

the bonds formed through conspiracy
fray easily and break often

THE KNOW-IT-ALL - 173/365

trust not those who think

they have the right answers

but rather those who ask

the right questions

Question:

How do you decide who to trust?

Clay Ingredients:

Super Sculpey

THE CHEATER - 95/365

"My eyes are closed...I can't see a thing...promise. No, really - I'm not looking...I wouldn't do that...I swear!"

My Reflection:

While I'm not a "cheater," I suppose there are times when I cheat myself. "Oops...where did the time go...just can't make it to the gym today."

While this isn't going to kill me, the fact that I'm pretending I don't know any better eats away at the fabric of my integrity leaving me with a sense of uneasiness and mistrust.

Perhaps the next time I try and fool myself or let "time slip away", I'll remember that to build "trust" requires a willingness to tell the "truth" and that one can't exist without the other.

Question:

How do you "cheat" yourself?

THE TEAM PLAYER - 78/365

"I'd like to express my opinion but I'm a "team player" so that's not possible. It's not possible because if I had my own opinion then I wouldn't be a "team player" anymore and if that were to happen then WHO would I be?

No, I'd rather know who I am even if I don't always like who I am rather than NOT know who I am and not like that either."

My Reflection:

Transformation is a difficult process that requires a good deal of "trust" that somehow everything will turn out okay. I guess that's why, at times, I have to be dragged into the "transformational arena" where I'm sure there are supernatural entities just waiting to eat me alive. And like The Team Player, I'd just assume stay where I am rather than face the unfamiliar.

But I'm learning that the more I allow myself to "let go" of the "familiar" place I'm in, the more I learn to trust my ability to end up in a better place than I could have ever imagined.

Question:

What's your "transformational" level of comfort?

THE RUMINATOR - 62/365

"I always look like this when I'm thinking. Actually, I'm not thinking at all I'm just holding these three un-connected thoughts in my head and letting them "be" - sort of like resting dough before putting it in the oven. If I don't let it rest, I'll end up with a "half-baked" idea and then I'll have to start all over again."

My Reflection:

The hardest thing for me to do creatively is to "let go." Holding a thought or an idea without trying to come to some conclusion takes a certain amount of faith on my part.

There was a time I had no faith whatsoever. I'd wrestle with a problem all night if necessary and in the end, I'd have an answer but it usually wasn't a very satisfactory one. I'd feel like I had lost the match but I didn't know why.

I don't sky dive but I imagine that having the "faith" to "ruminate" - is like trusting that the parachute you are wearing will open when you jump.

Perhaps I need to learn to hold on to possibilities while letting go of the outcome.

Question:

How willing are you to "let go?"