Saturday, November 14, 2009

THE MEMORY - 40/365


"So, you'd like to forget about that incident huh? Well, I have to say..."too bad" - what you want to forget I always remember and what you want to "remember"....well - you know the rest.

Why should I be cooperative? What's in it for me? I like the fact that you have to rely on me and I don't like it when you take me for granted so, occasionally, I have to let you know who's boss.

People depend on me for so many things - when I don't function optimally it can be a little...how should I say..."humiliating." A failed test - a forgotten name - a missed appointment...TORTURE, TORTURE, TORTURE - just what I do best!"

My Reflection:

I am convinced that my memory is a completely separate entity, having nothing to do with me - with a mind of its own (so to speak) - and its own personality. It fails me regularly - especially when I need it most and could care less if I'm humiliated or embarrassed. It's not very empathetic and when I beg or plead it totally shuts down.

I find that it works best when I pretend like I don't really need the information that I seek. Many times I casually indicate that if I don't have it, it's not the end of the world. But, in the end, it will still withhold a name like a bear hiding her cub and won't give it up no matter how many times I dangle the alphabet in front of it.

Maybe it's hungry and I just don't feed it enough or exercise it like I should and if I did - it would like me better and embarrass me less. Ya think?

Question:
How do you treat your memory?

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I DON'T KNOW, EVEN KNOW IF I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOREVER...I WOULD COME UP WITH AN ANSWER FOR THAT QUESTION YOU POSE.I DO KNOW I FORGOT ALL THE TIME AND I KNOW I WILL HAVE OR ALTZHEMER'S ANYTIME NOW!!!!
I WOULD LOVE TO REMEMBER BECAUSE OF THE BUSINESS I AM IN IT WOULD PLEASE PEOPLE ALL THE TIME IF I COULD REMEMBER THEIR NAMES. IT IS THE BEST COMPLIMENT, I THINK FOR ONE TO RECALL THE NAME OF THE OTHER BECAUSE IT MAKES THAT OTHER PERSON FEEL IMPORTANT OR THAT SOMETHING THEY DID OR SAID WAS REMEMBERABLE.
THE ONLY TIME TO FORGET SOMETHING IS WHEN IT WAS A HORRIBLE OCCURANCE AND WHY IN THE WORLD DO I WANT SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO STAY IN MY MEMORY.
PATTI

Sue Ellen said...

But the question is...do you forget it? The memory is a funny thing - the things I want to remember, run away from me; the things I want to forget, chase after me. What to do?

Unknown said...

Going back to your first question. How do we/I treat our memory. I think all we have is our memory. Sometimes we don't have the memory, but we have the visible scars to show something occurred.
Sometimes I try to remember an event in my childhood and there is no one around for me to account for it.Maybe I make up a story in my mind that I want to think fills out the scenerio of what I am trying to recall.Even then I don't know for sure if my memory is treating me fairly.
Wow, this is interesting....Patti